Sunday, January 19, 2014

Committing

I have ached a long time for the courage to confront my self-consciousness and self-doubt and start writing. I have wanted to connect more with others on things that matter to me. I have wanted to tap into the crystallization of ideas that comes from the effort to butterfly-net them out of the brain.

The first post here was in 2005. Since then I have made countless lists of "blog post ideas." I have drafted posts, then set them aside to later get them to the point where they were "ready to share".

The adage says that it is better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak and remove all doubt. I want to reject this damning notion. I am so ready to be thought a fool. I am done shrinking and retiring to manage my self-image.

I am making a commitment to myself here and now to post to this blog every Sunday morning at 8:00 AM (EST!). I will write about the wonderful people in my life and about the ideas, books, and pursuits that capture my imagination, about the causes that I believe in and the causes that I oppose, about things I am struggling with and things I have learned. 

I have spent too long trying to figure everything out before connecting with others. I have spent too long trying to craft my words to avoid disapproval. I am ready to be open about where I am at right now. 

Wanna be friends?

9 comments:

ConnollyCrew said...

Way to go Sparky! You are on the path to conquering your perfectionism...a road with which I am all too familiar. Strive instead for "optimal" (the best you can offer or do within your current circumstances), and accept that circumstances are always changing. So there will always be new opportunities to apply what you learn this time around and improve if it's needed! You'll quickly find that you are your own worst critic and that people will love your "best effort" :-)

ConnollyCrew said...

Way to go Sparky! You are on the path to conquering your perfectionism...a road with which I am all too familiar. Strive instead for "optimal" (the best you can offer or do within your current circumstances), and accept that circumstances are always changing. So there will always be new opportunities to apply what you learn this time around and improve if it's needed! You'll quickly find that you are your own worst critic and that people will love your "best effort" :-)

Gina said...

Sounds like good stuff! I look forward to future posts.

novidiac said...

'bout time!!

Convince me that blogging is awesome.. send me on a 6+ year journey of bloggingdom of (which Cooper will happily tell you I'm failing miserably at if I don't blog multiple times per day let alone per month!)

I look forward to the coming Sunday mornings.

Unknown said...

We will be sure to check it out!

Joshua and Jessica

All Of Us said...
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Bronwyn said...

Yes!!!

Valerie said...

Hooray!

Graton said...

Channa, I like your iterative improvement paradigm vs. trying to create a masterpiece.

Gina, Thanks Gina! My nephew opened his mission call last night. Here's hoping he gets to do lots of service!

Nova! Thanks for blazing the trail!

Jess Jo, Brownwyn, and Val: Thanks for the encouragement!

Feel free to call me on it if I ever fail at my commitment! :)